I've been a father for a little over a month. Well, I feel like I should at least get half credit for the time that Baby Jeremiah was in the womb but that's another debate for another day.
I thought I'd write about a few observations I've made as I enter into fatherhood. Or as Hannah and I joke, eighteen years of learning flexibility.
(1) I'm still a very selfish person.
I say "still" because Tim Keller accurately describes marriage as the rooting out of selfishness. In fact, he argues that God's intent for marriage (one of them) is that very ideal. A sanctification of sorts.
I, like most people, didn't think I was that selfish when I was single but marriage was a wake up call. Well, having a kid, is like that but times a million. If you don't have kids, that probably sounds hyperbolic but I promise, it's not.
I like to do things my way, I have a short fuse and I often serve my plans instead of letting them serve my goals or dreams.
(2) I love my son more than I could ever imagine.
And the love I have for him is growing by the day.
(3) I am starting to get a better grasp on "God as Father".
When Sceipture talks about us as children or about being adopted into God's family, I understood it cognitively. But now, I understand it more in my heart.
(4) I'm reminded that life isn't about "fixing stuff".